It's Life

I can't say much perhaps nothing about what's life, it's meaning and end goals. The older I get the more I enjoy fighting with myself. In my experience, I've often found that the darkest paths are more illuminating. Till now, life revolves around uncertainty, discomfort, failure, and illusion. I don't know but I enjoyed my failure more than my success, which are rare, may be it's my love with struggles, where I find out who I am. Sometimes it seems very painful and found myself at receiving end. Sometimes I feel like quit everything and move on but the same time it feels like things are getting deeper as I am going into it.

I don't know why I'm writing this horseshit. May be because I want to know whether it's true or just another quote,“ Today's struggle will be tomorrow's fun”, who cares, I really don't care!

May be I'm struggling now, may be my dreams seems very unreal, may be I'm a thing whom people enjoy fooling around, I don't know what to say, but one thing is clear that people don't care they will feel damned if you do, they will feel damned if you don't. So, I choose let them feel damned, “who cares, I really don't care”. I'm writing this because I want to look back and laugh at myself, how silly I was to worried so much. If so, let it then be a timely reminder for myself to appreciate what I have in front of me, and not give a fuck to current situation any more. It too, shall pass.

Or may be, I'm enjoying the things right now, may be it is the best moments of my life or may be the worst, which I'm not able to recognize, whatever may be it is i just want to remember this moment to rest of my life. I may be able to extract some value from it in future, it may act as guiding light or may give strength, who knows.

I should celebrate both the bad and the good for what they are, because they play the role they need to play for me to become who I need to become.

I want to associate my past with present and present with future, because association is a very powerful thing which can be explain by following lines:-

“A rain drop from the sky: if it is caught by clean hands, is pure enough for drinking. If it falls in the gutter, it's value drop so much that it can't be used even for washing your feet. If it falls on a hot surface, it will evaporate … if it falls on a lotus leaf, it shines like a pearl, and finally if it falls on a oyster, it becomes a pearl… the drop is the same but its existence and value depends on whom it is associated with.”

So, I want to associate with those who are beautiful at hearts and want to see my own inner transformation.

L'chaim!